September 27, 2010

Little Realizations

Last night, Allen and I popped into Sam's club to pick up a prescription and a few other odd things we couldn't live without, like an enormous container of sour cream.  As we were rushing through the drug store and personal care aisles to get to the pharmacy before it closed all of a sudden I caught sight of an enormous box of diapers. 
Which is when I had to stop and catch my breath because I had the realization that this is the first time since 1998 that we didn't have someone wearing diapers.  Or pull ups.  Or nursing. Or someone on the way who will be nursing and wearing diapers.  I am not kidding when I say the thought took my breath away.

When you consider the numbers it sounds quite shocking even to me.  I have been pregnant for almost 7 years of my 38 years.  I nursed babies for at least nine more. 
Not to say we won't ever again.  Only God knows the rest of the story.  But for now it was sobering to realize how quickly life changes.  How a precious time, such as raising young ones, can come with such a bang and slip away so silently.  And never seem like it was  quite long enough.


  1. I feel it keenly too!

    After just our one miracle baby, it has been sobering to realize that each milestone is also a "last" for me.

    It was rather bittersweet packing up those bottles and diapers and receiving blankets.

    So nice to treasure each stage of our kids!

  2. It is a very sobering moment, indeed! Hard to believe it's been 16 years since my last baby was born.

    How times does fly! :> (