January 28, 2011

Reminders From the Valley - One Red Leaf

One moment in time can change your perspective forever.  One sunny day in May, January 29th was a day we looked forward to with excitement and joy.  After hearing a few brief words on July 12th, it became a day I have looked forward to with dread.  And now, here it is upon us.

The last few days we have looked back to see what we've learned, remember how God has worked and praise Him for bringing us through.

I have faced many trials in my life before I gave my life over to the Lord and with Him carrying me along the way, as His child.  I can unquestionably say, I can not think of any six months that were darker than these.  Nor can I see any time that His light and love shone brighter.

Throughout this valley, I have learned some new lessons.  But mostly, I have been reminded of things He has taught me in my years as a daughter to the King.  I have a friend who is going through a rough spot right now and might benefit from some of the ways God spoke to me.  These are mostly adapted from my personal journal entries from July 2010.  Maybe there is someone else out there who will be blessed by how God was working on my path.  It would be too much to read all at once so they will be coming in installments.  I call them reminders from the valley.

The Lord often gives us comfort in ways that seem strange unto man.  The first morning, after a long and sleepless night following the loss of our baby Gussie, I curled up on the couch with my Bible facing the picture window.  As I waited for the sun to come up so I could read, I struggled to find a little peace.  As the enemy often does in times of trials, everything seemed magnified to unbearable levels.  One minute it was thinking of being an outcast among my family and the next it was the loss of our baby.  In the pre-dawn darkness, the Lord brought verse after verse to my memory of His love and mercy and care, but the darkness seemed so much greater than even His promises.

And then the sun came up.  I will never know why it brought me such unbelievable comfort, but as I wiped my eyes and looked out the window the first thing that caught my sight was one cluster with a red leaf.  On our cherry tree, that had been completely green since the end of April, was tucked one tiny red leaf.  Why it never turned, I do not know.  Why it didn't blow away with the other red leaves the fall before, I do not know.  Why I sat and looked at that tree every morning and sat under it reading to my kids almost every afternoon and never saw it before, I do not know.

But there it was.  One red leaf hanging on and persevering long after its time.  The Lord controls even one tiny leaf and no matter what was happening in my life, He was controlling it, too.  That leaf stayed there through out the summer and into the fall when it gently and silently blew away one night with the other red leaves of Autumn.  

Isn't that how sorrow is?  It seems like it will hang on forever, no matter what.  And then without you ever realizing what has happened, you wake up one day and it has faded away with the Autumn leaves.  In the meantime, we cling to the Lord like that leaf to a branch and He will help us persevere in inexplicable ways.




  1. i've been made thankful time and time again, the HE knows whats best for us and will keep us thru it,
    thinking of you dear friend!

  2. How this ministered to me. Thank you for sharing.

    And God bless you as He continues to pour His comfort out on you.

  3. I love it. Thank you for posting that. I'm going to start looking for red leaves. :)

  4. I need to learn to be more thankful and watch for those "red leaves" in my life.

  5. This reminded me of a time I went through last winter..I injured my sciatic nerve,and boy was I in pain,the pain killers were not cutting it...never had I gone through so much pain,there were days where I wasn't able to stand up for more than 2 seconds without falling back in bed due to the pain,I literally had to plan my trips to the bathroom,some days all I could do was lay in bed looking out my window at the tree right next to it,and the Lord used that tree to comfort me,letting me know that He was in control of everything ,even those leaves on that tree , to not worry,he knew my pain and I could have peace ,and trust Him.God is Great!

  6. I have just finished reading through your last few post, and they touch so eloquently on thoughts I have been experiencing lately too. About being careful what we pray for...so true. However to get deeper into the will of our Father we have to be willing to be tried and tested. When we know that our life is securely within God's hands we have the peace that comes from knowing He will lead us through whereever He leads us to. I know for myself I want to leave the safety of the harbor to go out unto the depths with Him.

    Thank you for expressing your thoughts. Hugs to you and your family during this time.