September 4, 2011

I Will Carry You: The Sacred Dance of Grief and Joy by Angie Smith

For Mother's Day Brianna gifted me with  I Will Carry You:  The Sacred Dance of Grief and Joy by Angie Smith.  At the end of my pregnancy and feeling emotional, I wasn't so sure about reading it, but knowing what I do of the Smith family, I couldn't resist the temptation.

This beautiful book details the family's journey through their pregnancy with baby Audrey:  a baby they were encouraged to abort.  A beautiful little girl who was not expected to live but a few minutes after birth... if she made it that long.  A precious child of God who, in fact, drew breath for several hours as her family formed the only memories they would share on this earth.  A girl, who lived here just a short time, but changed many lives along the way.  

I already knew Angie and Audrey's story.  Reading her blog is, in fact, what led me to blog world.  So, as I picked up the volume and opened to page one, I expected just a recounting of her experiences.  But what I discovered was this book is more than the retelling of her story.  No, it goes much deeper.  Angie opens up her heart to share how she tried to capture each moment with her unborn child and how she lived through the grief of burying her daughter.  She goes on to tell of the struggle as she and her husband, Todd, grieved in the very different ways of men and women while trying to keep their marriage strong.  She shares first hand experience on helping children deal with the pain of watching a sibling go to the Lord.  She gives real practical advice on how to help others deal with the unimaginable pain of losing a child.  

But still she doesn't stop there.  Throughout the book Angie weaves the story of Mary, Martha and Lazarus.  I saw these familiar people and their relationship with Jesus in a light I had never considered before.  Her ability to pull out Biblical truth and apply it to the aching heart was a poetic balm to this reader.

As I said, when I picked up this book I expected to be sad or depressed or both by the end.  When I was following Angie's story, I burst out into tears regularly for days.  My heart was so heavy I could barely sleep.  And that was before our own miscarriage.  But I wasn't sad or depressed.  I did shed a lot of tears before I read the final page.  And, yes, I did relive my own sorrow.  But, instead of being plunged into despair, I felt victorious as I closed the back cover.

I would recommend this book to anyone who is dealing with the death of a child... anyone who knows someone who has suffered a loss... anyone who supports the right of the unborn to live... anyone who wants to enrich their walk with the Lord... anyone who wants to read a  beautiful story of faith and love and beauty.


  1. Sounds like a very moving, inspiring book. There is somethinging in me lately that I just can't seem to read books that somehow don't inspire me and challenge me to be a better person anymore. I want to feel like if I take the time to read a book, it was time well spent...seems like this is one of those books.

  2. Kat~

    I know the book will touch me as much as the song has!

    Love and blessings~