September 23, 2011

Trust in the Lord, Not Man -by Ashley


I was so thrilled and honored when Kat asked me to be one of the guest posters while she is away. It didn't take me long to figure out what I felt I should write about, but I guess I should probably start out by introducing myself a little bit.

After Kat asked about posting I knew I wanted to write about a situation with my sister, and what the Lord taught me. I'll leave out many details, but I believe that is for the best, but I mostly just want to be able to brag on the Lord.

Four years ago my sister, who I considered my best friend outside of the Lord, got mixed up with old friends and old habits. One morning she just left. She left it all. Her husband, her four children, and I felt as if she just left me. Maybe I took it a lot harder than I should have, but it hurt. I can't pretend like it didn't. There were many nights when I would just sit up crying to the Lord. Most nights I didn't know what to say, but the Lord knew His child's heart. He heard all those words I couldn't say. 


Over the next few months I saw a sister that I loved and thought the world of in a life I never thought I would. I hate to say it, but it didn't take long for my brother in law to take the same path. Sometimes I think it was because he just hurt so much.It's crazy to think that they once were so in love with the Lord, but I'm not naive. I know it happens. The devil knows our weaknesses. He knew theirs.


I would be a fool to say that my sister and brother in law aren't saved because they live such a life. It could be me next week if I let my guard down. It took me some time to forgive my sister and brother in law. Actually it took me about two years or more. I held so much bitterness towards them because I felt they had let me down. That's just it though. They let me down. It was ridiculous of me to never think they would. It's ridiculous for me to think that a human never will let me down. 


One morning at church the Lord just broke me. I knelt there at the pew I was sitting at, and just told Him I was sorry for putting my confidence in man.

It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man-Psalm 118:8


I was so guilty of that. For years it was my sister and brother in law that I watched. I didn't think they would ever fail me, but guess what? They did. I wish I could say that a human won't fail, but I am one, I know how we are. The Lord taught me so much about putting all my trust in Him. For a while I felt so alone, but the Lord was using what happened to help me to grow. I grew in my faith, I grew more dependent upon my Saviour, my love for Him grew, and that trust grew. He has never failed me, and He has never hurt me. I can't say that there aren't still times now when it hits me. It mostly happens when I'm at church and turn my head to an empty seat where they would once sit and praise the Lord. There are still times in the late night when the tears come, but I'm thankful for that.


Yet the LORD will command his lovingkindness in the daytime, and in the night his song my prayer unto the God of my life.-Psalm 42:8 


The choices my sister and brother in law made He didn't choose, but He knew how to use it for His glory, and I could never thank Him enough for that.

I think about a verse from the song God's Been Good often.

Times replay and I can see that I've cried some bitter tearsBut I felt His arms around me as I faced my greatest fearsYou see I've had more gains than lossesAnd I've known more joy than hurt as His grace rolled down upon me undeserved.

God's been good in my lifeThough I've had my share of hard timesBy my side He has always stoodThrough it all God's been good.

He has been and will always be good in my life.


--Ashley Coutu 
And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men; Colossians 3:23










I'm Ashley from Life Is Beautiful. I'm just a 22 year old sinner saved by God's amazing grace! I've been blogging quite a few years, but it took me some time to find out how awesome it really is, and I've not looked back since!

2 comments :

  1. AShley,

    Thank you for taking time to post on Art's Chili Pepper during my absence. Your post was so true and yet a message we all need to be reminded of. Those who don't know the Lord seem to expect because sinners come to know the Lord and get saved that we instantly become perfect when the truth is, we are still just sinners. But the fact is, often as Christians, we expect that christians, ourselves included, should be perfect. But then we wouldn't need Jesus, would we? We tend to look to other Christians as our example or put our trust in them, when other believers are still just as fallible as we are. We all need to keep our eyes on Jesus as our example, guide and support system. If we put our trust in other people, no matter how strong or how good they are, we will always be disappointed at some point. May your words also be an admonition to professed Christians to live as close to Jesus as possible so as not to cause the weaker brethren looking at us to stumble.

    Thank you for sharing such a painful experience with my readers so as to help these wonderful ladies grow closer to the Lord.

    Hugs,

    Kat

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  2. AShley,

    Thank you for taking time to post on Art's Chili Pepper during my absence. Your post was so true and yet a message we all need to be reminded of. Those who don't know the Lord seem to expect because sinners come to know the Lord and get saved that we instantly become perfect when the truth is, we are still just sinners. But the fact is, often as Christians, we expect that christians, ourselves included, should be perfect. But then we wouldn't need Jesus, would we? We tend to look to other Christians as our example or put our trust in them, when other believers are still just as fallible as we are. We all need to keep our eyes on Jesus as our example, guide and support system. If we put our trust in other people, no matter how strong or how good they are, we will always be disappointed at some point. May your words also be an admonition to professed Christians to live as close to Jesus as possible so as not to cause the weaker brethren looking at us to stumble.

    Thank you for sharing such a painful experience with my readers so as to help these wonderful ladies grow closer to the Lord.

    Hugs,

    Kat

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